I have to share with you what happened at chuch this weekend. The alter call on Sunday, 3 children made their public profession of faith, 1 adult was saved at the service, and 2 adults rededicated their lives to Christ. WOW!

Even better…

4 children, 2 adults and 1 teenager were baptized! Oh my! PRAISE THE LORD! By the end, there was not a dry eye in the building. I am totally blown away! I have not seen that sort of movement in a while.

Just thought I would share.

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First I have to tell you, I am old. I do not remember much from 6th grade, so I went to refresh my memory, by listening to some of the music from the 6th grade. Much to my surprise I discovered that my all time favorite secular song was released when I was in the 6th grade. It did not become a favorite of mine until High School, but I just thought that was cool. Anyway, on to the 6th grade or 1981-82. YIPES!

Music was my “life” well that and boys. I was “totallyintothevalleygirlsceneyaknowwhatimeanliketotally.” Sometimes I still talk that fast and it drives people crazy. At that time in my life, if/when I went to church it was because this cute boy or that cute boy went there.

It was my first year at Zia Intermediate School, in Artesia, NM. This was the first year that all 5 of the elementary schools combined and everyone went to middle school. My closet friends were Christy, Cathy, Alice, Jana and Kim.

MTV had just came on air and I LOVED music. I knew every word to every video they played, but I would not pay attention in class.

Youknowthiswasatotallybitchentimeinmylifeandihadsomuchfun

I will end this walk through the 6th Grade with a video from that year.

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A new thing I am going to do is share a song daily/weekly is that I am going to share a song that touches my soul.

Jesus Messiah as sung by Chris Tomlin.

He became sin
Who knew no sin
That we might become His Righteousness
He humbled himself and carried the cross

Love so amazing
Love so amazing

(Chorus)
Jesus Messiah
Name above all names
Blessed Redeemer
Emmanuel
The rescue for sinners
The ransom from Heaven
Jesus Messiah
Lord of all

His body the bread
His blood the wine
Broken and poured out all for love
The whole earth trembled
And the veil was torn

(Chorus)

All I hope is in You
All I hope is in You
All the glory to You, God
The light of the world

(Chorus)

I had a couple of dreams, a while back, that I have hinted at but never shared the details of. Now it is time for me to share them. This is very difficult for me to go back to these dreams but I need to let them go.

The first one: I was sitting in a sports bar, with some friends. This man walked in and he was the most beautiful man in the world. His beauty radiated through the room. Everyone was in awe. As he walked by, we noticed there was an axe in his back, but there was no blood. When he was asked about it he said that he and his wife were attacked and that he was immortal. His wife would live as long as he had this axe in his back, but when it was removed she would die. He started tearing up and said that she was in great pain, and it was time to let her go. He wanted help removing the axe. Several people helped him remove it. Everyone was touched at his desire to see her pain end, commenting on how thoughtful he was that he did not want her to hurt anymore.

Then he looked at me and said, “Do you want to live forever? I can make you immortal, too. Just say you will be mine.” I laughed at him and reminded him that he just killled his wife by removing the axe, how long would I live, really? All through out the evening, everywhere I went he was there, looking at me with those intense eyes, calling to me. Promising me happiness if I would go with him.

After that dream was over, all through the night, every dream I had would be fine, then he would be there, calling to me.

I am convinced that if I would have went to him I would have died in my sleep. This man was a demon or the enemy himself. I could feel him watching my every move, listening to my every word. I could feel a heaviness in my home. All I wanted to do was cry. I felt impending doom.

The second one, the next night: I was in my garage, doing laundry. This woman walked in. She was about 6′ tall, weighed about 200 lbs, all muscle. Long hair, the color of straw. Square face. Eyes as black as coal, and no mouth. She hit me over the head with a stick, knocked me out. When I came too we were in the living room. She had drug me the there by my hair. I was bloddy and beaten laying on the floor. She was sitting on my couch, holding Pepper. She told me to do exactly what she told me to do, or she would kill Pepper. (Now, some of you may not know how much Pepper means to me, but some of you do. She is my baby girl. This is as bad as if she had Rock Star or Boog, sitting there.) But I said, “Go ahead and kill her. She is old and about to die, anyway.” Luckily I woke up and did not find out if she knew I was bluffing, but I knew I could not do what ever it was she was wanting me to do, because I knew she was a demon. She was evil. It was radiating from her.

When I woke up from that dream, the 23rd Psalm came to me.

The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters.
He restores my soul.
He leads me in paths of righteousness
   for his name’s sake.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
   I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
   your rod and your staff,
   they comfort me.

 You prepare a table before me
   in the presence of my enemies;
you anoint my head with oil;
   my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
   all the days of my life,
and I shall dwell in the house of the LORD
    forever.

With that reminder, I prayed. I prayed like I had not prayed in a long time. I remembered that even when I do not hear Him, He is with me. I had wondered away, again. satan was taking advantage of that.

The name of this blog came out of that encounter.

I constantly claim the promise that the Lord is my Shepard. I am not alone. He guides me. He will not forsake me. The presence, sense of doom has left my home. God is Lord of my home and he will stay that way. It is up to me to keep it that way, until the day that AG takes his place as the spiritual head of our family.

This week, for Word Filled Wednesdays, I am posting one of my favorite passages.

1 Corinthians 7:12-16 (ESV)
To the rest I say (I, not the Lord) that if any brother has a wife who is an unbeliever, and she consents to live with him, he should not divorce her. If any woman has a husband who is an unbeliever, and he consents to live with her, she should not divorce him. For the unbelieving husband is made holy because of his wife, and the unbelieving wife is made holy because of her husband. Otherwise your children would be unclean, but as it is, they are holy. But if the unbelieving partner separates, let it be so. In such cases the brother or sister is not enslaved. God has called you to peace. For how do you know, wife, whether you will save your husband? Or how do you know, husband, whether you will save your wife?

Because I am a believer, my family is under the dominion of God. They are NOT saved, but they are blessed and protected.

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Another thing…

God promised me that if I had faith, He would provide. I am not complaining. I know it may sound/look that way, but I am not. I completely trust God, for the first time in my life. I KNOW that He will completely provide. He is King and Lord. He is the ONLY one who is completely faithful and will do as He promises. He will provide the knowledge I seek & someone for me to share my knowledge with. ONLY God can make that promise and keep it. I just have to have faith.

This has to be applied to all my life. I started slipping, doubting, and my finances got out of whack. I have to have faith. I have faith. God will provide!

Again, thanks for listening.

I just posted a comment on Rebecca’s blog about my feelings on discipleship and I thought that would be a good way for me to break my silence. You see, I am still struggling with many things. I am NOT struggling with my belief, I am struggling with the lack of direction.

I walk into the local Christian bookstore and ask for a book to help me explain things to AG. AG does not fellowship with the Lord. I am not going to go into all that, as that is not what this post is to be about. But there are times I have questions that I just cannot find the answer to. I need help. I ask for help and I get the same answer “The only book you need is The Book. All your answers are there.” But no one points me to where to find the things that AG asks me. I struggle with this.

I have made the decision that no matter what AG thinks, I have to live my life the way God wants me to. I know that I need fellowship with other believers. I attend a HUGE church, well huge compared to the size of my community. My pastor is amazing. But I do not feel “plugged-in” there. I have asked for help. The woman that our women’s ministry directed me to told me that I needed to quit my job and go to every bible study the church offered???? Um, if I quit my job how could I afford all the study guides, which are not provided by the church? Plus quitting my job would drive a larger divide between AG and the Church, than is already there. Also, God has shown me that He wants me at work. This woman could not back up her advice with anything biblical, either.

I met with an elderly lady for a while. Her name is Alice and she is a beautiful woman of God. The problem there was that she would forget what we had already discussed. I loved hearing her stories, but I needed more.

Discipleship is essential. I am not talking about attending a class, but more like a small group of between 2 and 5 believers, all in different stages, who can relate to each other.

I recently attended a different church. Oddly enough (divinely enough?) the sermon was on being “plugged-in”. As the pastor was preaching, I was listening, and the Holy Spirit was telling me to take what this man was saying, go back to Central (my church for the past 3 years) and apply his teaching to my life at Central. MAKE myself plugged-in and make sure that there was no one else was feeling left out the way I have felt in the past.

I am becoming more active in my Sunday Morning Adult Bible Study (Sunday School Class). I am joining a small group that meets weekly in a home, as a “home church” satelite of our church, with more one on one discussion.

I will volunteer to substitute for the children & youth sunday school classes. I will volunteer and attend the women’s ministry events.

I am praying about joing the mentoring program in the fall. That will have to be something that is God led. I do not feel qualified, but then, who really is?

I have used AG’s faith as a crutch to not get involved not let people close, as he does not want to meet anyone from my church. I have to get past this and work on what God wants, not what AG or Melly wants.

Thanks for listening. I know I was all over the place with this. It is just something I felt led to share.

God bless you!

Saw this over at Rachel’s and thought I would check it out. To be honest with my friends, I thought I would share my results. I know I have certain problems. This just reaffirmed what I need to work on.

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Ask you all to pray. I just applied for my dream job. Now, this is MY dream job, and while I think it is God’s will, could you please pray that God’s will be done in this situation. It is in the department that I temped in back in early spring, before I got hired at TAMU.